I can't believe as I sit here that I am just a couple of days away from being 29 weeks pregnant! It is still surreal, even at this point! I am feeling pretty great, aside from some fatigue which is caused mainly by the need to get up to pee every 2 hours during the night. My feet are definitely larger than they used to be and by days end, they are swollen, although nothing too terribly shocking. I have no back pain or sciatic pain and none of the pelvic pain a lot of pregnant women complain about but I do still have about 9 or so weeks to go (my Doc said she will very likely induce me at 38 weeks because of the gestational diabetes) so I won't gloat about it just yet. Speaking of the gestational diabetes, I am still controlling it with diet so no insulin injections yet, thank goodness. The diabetes nurse did say that very, very few women get all the way through without having to go on insulin but most are on it by this point and I have managed to avoid it, so I will just keep my fingers crossed.
From here on in, my doctors appointments will be every 2 weeks. Considering I also have to meet with the diabetes nurse every 2 weeks, that makes for a lot of appointments, which is frustrating, especially when I work full time and getting around is starting to get a bit more difficult.
As far as work goes, I don't have a date in mind of when I will stop working and I hope to continue for as long as I can. Realistically, I think by the beginning of February, I will be ready to consider reducing my hours, if not going on leave all together. I have decided I am taking my full year of maternity leave also. I figure I have worked full time since I was 19 or 20 and I have never taken any kind of unemployment benefits (or any government benefits for that matter) in my life, so I am going to take this opportunity to stay home and not miss any of the little guy's developments for the first year. The cut in pay will be huge (about 45% of my usual income - and that is with a 20% employer top up!) but we can manage and I just don't think I will be able to separate myself from him before the year is up.
I am starting to think about child birth and about being a mom for the first time and I must admit that I am terrified! I am sure all first time mom's go through this but I don't like it one bit. I am so terrified of what will happen during the birth and then the thought of being responsible for another life all of a sudden. I also find it scary to think that on that day when we leave the house and drive away on our way to the hospital, that it will be for the very last time as a family of 2. We have only had each other for the past 7.5 years of marriage and although I know the change will different yet for the better, I still worry about how we will adjust, how our relationship will change and how we will make out as a family of 3. We have an amazing marriage and relationship and I guess at this point I couldn't imagine it being any better, so if the only way to go is down, then what will happen. Logically, I know our marriage will actually get better and be filled with so many more happy times, but when something is so good already, it's only human nature to not be able to fathom it improving even more.
Well, that's my update folks. I promise from here on in to update more frequently! Take care everyone and let's all take a moment to say a prayer for those poor children and their families in Connecticut.
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